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The latest and greatest of Aubs and I! I was 235 when I delivered, I am 160 pounds now. 10 pounds till I am back to pre-pregnancy weight! You can actually tell I have dimples again on my face lol

My little Aubreekins. She was very confused as to why she had that on lol



That I still am dealing with my breakup with Joseph. I’m sure people are thinking why can’t I just get over it or talk about something else. I know it can be worse. I really try to remain positive and not focus on what I feel like I should have. It’s just incredibly hard when all my friends are…

Nothing, NOTHING is wrong with you. My mom has been separated from my dad for twelve years now, she HATES him, he cheated on her and abused her and treated her like shit, and even *she* hasn’t been able to move on.

You share a different bond with someone who’s a parent to your child. You’re always going to wonder what it would’ve been like if things worked out. But, you know what? Fuck him. He cheated. He wasn’t happy then and I guarantee he isn’t happy with whatever new girl he has now. You aren’t the one who needs to work on yourself-he is. He needs to grow the fuck up, and sadly, that’s something he has to do on his own.

So, let him. Let him miss out on this beautiful little girl’s life. Let him miss out on her first words and the first steps she takes and the first time she accidentally curses in front of you, and all of the laughter and joy she brings into your life. He doesn’t deserve any of that, and both of you deserve much better than he could have ever provided.

I know it’s exhausting hearing the words “it gets better”, “it gets easier”, “you’ll meet someone nice one day”. But really, time is the only blessing you can count on. It heals everything, it brings better people into your life. And now you know EXACTLY the kind of shit you won’t tolerate in a relationship.

Don’t rush yourself into anything, love. You’re a wonderful human being inside and out, and you deserve nothing less than the very best. At least start with loving yourself enough to accept that.

You and your little girl are going to have an amazing life together.

Seriously, I’m in tears. Thank you Mackenzie. Seriously. If I could give you a big ole hug right now I would.

"Date someone who is interested in you. I don’t mean someone who thinks you’re cute or funny. I mean someone who wants to know every insignificant detail about you. Someone who wants to read every word you write. Someone who wants hear every note of your favourite song, and watch every scene of your favourite movie. Someone wants to find every scar upon your body, and learn where each one came from. Someone who wants to know your favourite brand of toothpaste, and which quotes resonate deep inside your bones when you hear them. There is a difference between attraction and interest. Find the person who wants to learn every aspect of who you are, and hold onto them."

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Anonymous Asked:
Don't beat yourself up for making the decisions that are best for you and your daughter. If the guy wasn't willing to step up and grow up then that's his issue. You're a good mom from what I can see and the past is the past. Look forward towards the future :)

My answer:

Thank you anon. I try, I really do. But idk sometimes, the negative side of me comes out more than the positive. The future is brighter than the past!




Fuck. It’s ironic how empty I am because 

I swear 6 months ago I had the universe inside

of me but I cried the rivers in my bones dry.

The volcanoes in my chest erupted when you told

me you didn’t love me anymore and lava flooded

my body and hardened till I stopped sleeping.

I had stars in my lungs but I burned them

all out with the cigarettes I was smoking

to get you the fuck out of my throat. The

flowers growing at the bottoms of my

stomach are dead. Apparently you  

can’t water flowers with vodka.

I had the sky in my veins but it’s

been pretty fucking stormy since I

ripped them open. I had planets 

on the tip of my tongue but

the debris from the shattered 

remains of “us” have been

crashing into them. I was

everything. And then I met

you and we were everything.

Now you’re fucking some

blonde girl who gets

high all the time and

I’m a fucking


this is my favorite fucking poem ever ever ever

This gives me the chills like crazy

That I still am dealing with my breakup with Joseph. I’m sure people are thinking why can’t I just get over it or talk about something else. I know it can be worse. I really try to remain positive and not focus on what I feel like I should have. It’s just incredibly hard when all my friends are married and I’m the single mom out… or I see all my friends from high school having babies and are with the father’s of their children. I just feel like I’m being punished for something still. That God doesn’t want me happy. I was doing so good about being happy and positive. But yesterday I completely sabotaged myself. I dont know what’s wrong with me. I just want to be happy and not look back and regret my decision of ending things with him. I want to feel like I matter. I want to feel loved. But that all has to start with myself… it still hurts so much whenever I think back that Joseph missed her birth. Simply because he didn’t want to put in the leave paperwork. It hurts me to realize I was never enough or what he wanted and I never will be. He’s already moved on and I’m sitting here just wondering when the hell I’ll ever feel ready to go on a date again. I tried so hard to make it work and we just didn’t work. I will never understand why he didn’t walk away, why he kept leading me on, why he just didn’t grow a pair and break up with me. My mom says he was waiting for me to do it, and now that I finally did he was free to screw whoever again. He told me he was changed in Louisiana, that he was so happy that I gave him another chance and he wouldn’t screw it up. And he was going to do everything possible to get Aubree and I out there in September. But then he just said he needed some time to fix things and that he couldn’t support us so I just said I couldn’t wait for him anymore because of what happened. I couldn’t be with him over the phone again for another year. And now, we aren’t civil and he is now dating someone. I’m stupid. I dont know why I can’t just move on already. I just want to get over this already but I don’t know how. I feel like I’m drowning some days, other days I feel like fuck him! I KNOW I deserve more than what he ever gave me. But I can’t help but wonder what if I would have just said ok, I understand. He probably would have cheated on me again. He still had those dating sites up and he claimed to not remember the passwords to any of them but that’s how he met the new girl. What is wrong with me?

Katelin. 21. My daughter is the best thing to ever happen to me. I'm on a journey of loving myself, positivity, and awesomeness. If you follow me, that's awesome. Talk to me!

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